Wednesday, December 31, 2008

νέα αρχή

Driving tonight... I haven't worked a New Years in ages. I haven't driven in awhile either. I hope this next year is killer! I feel as if it's going to be.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008


People love to hate.... I know you for over 5 years? You change your name and identity? Your ridiculous..... You and your 2 friends who are always nice to me when you aren't around each other are more than welcome to yell at me. Because as soon as you leave... You are the young girls who haven't known me even half as anyone where you see me. Every time, someone makes fun of you. Thats fine. I'll admit to my stupidity.... Will you? Using the term "cunt" in a loose term? fuuuuuck you. Changing your identity and name? Try liking yourself before you judge me. I have more dirt on you to bury all of you and your friends anyway. Do it.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Γραμμή σπασμένων καρδιών

I think I need to start playing music again soon. I feel crazy destructive. Not like I want a bunch of narcotics and a fifth of whiskey and do 120 going south in the northbound lane of I-5, but just testosterone. Really hard to be behaved right now.... I'm single, I don't have to necessarily be on my best.... and I'm not. I don't want to totally lose control though. What's an out of control libido to do....

Thursday, December 25, 2008


I've been waiting so long to sing my song....
And I've been waiting so long for this thing to come....
Yeah - I've been thinking so long I was the only one.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


Can't sleep.... View from my balcony.

έως σας παίρνω

Getting over all the snow. Was fun for awhile, but its really fucking up business. Haven't touched my car. Mayor Nickles is really neglecting the city. Many main roads still not sanded. Pretty ridiculous. Worst I've seen living in Seattle.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... Not feeling it too much this year. I just have my mind focused on some other things right now. I have some goals and desires that strongly need acknowledged, and until then, its hard for me to put any thought into the holidays this year. Although I do wish everyone the best, but I really need to acknowledge myself more. I don't always take care of myself all that well. But anyway... Back to what I do best... Wishing and dreaming. Good night.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008


People sicken me.... Say what you want about how negative I am, but I'm free. There's room in my bed.... You know who you are.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

κάνετε σας να έρθετε

Its brutal out. Went to Black N' Blue last night. So many good people last night. Walked all over the town. Suppose to be an insane storm coming in tonight.

Trying to figure out what to do if anything tonight. Heres a video to warm the bones....

Thursday, December 18, 2008


So spooky out there!Play in the snow! I had lots of fun in it last night. Ate shit a couple times.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

νύχτα τελειώνει αλλά ο ήλιος αυτό don' άνοδος

Wendy. Wendy O' Williams. All the way up, in my ears right now. She was a true hero. Independent thinker. Its sad that no one could convince her she wasn't alone. Its hard to go for the cause when your convinced you're the only one. I truly miss her.Tom Snyder RIP with WENDY O. WILLIAMS and the Plasmatics

Sleeping in the living room... Bedroom is freezing. Fuckin' lonely.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


Exactly my philosophy.... To me it can't be controlled. Desire as described on Wikipedia; "While desires are often classified as emotions by laypersons, psychologists often describe desires as different from emotions; psychologists tend to argue that desires arise from bodily structures, such as the stomach's need for food, whereas emotions arise from a person's mental state." Its almost beyond any moral realm. I don't always feel proud of my desires, but it just has to be fed. What's interesting to me though, is that if I'm in a relationship, its with someone that fulfills all my desires. Keeps me happy. I'm not a cheater since once in my early 20's (I had noooo idea how to even have a relationship then), but I expect any person below the age of 25 to do stupid shit and learn. If they don't, something is probably not right there. We tend to start battling our moral decisions along with our desires. But the truth is, they don't work well with each other. Decisions come from the mind, its all choice. To me desire doesn't come from the mind. Its uncontrollable.... Just like a stomach needs food.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Θέλω να σας κάνω

The highlight by far, is this bands new single....

...The Scams. Outta Sweden (of course). Its completely rare for me to ever here a perfect song. The new single Killer Machine is fuckin' amazing and makes me want the summer to come soon.

On day 6 of recovering stuck inside my apartment, looking out to all the snow on the ground and not being able to go out and take a walk in it. Sad. Running out of food, I'm down to a couple of cans of chicken noodle soup and vegetarian chicken taquitos. My gas heat thermostat is up 95% and its still freezing. All I would like to do right now is go for a walk, and drive. I love driving in the snow. But... Its not happening.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Το πρόβλημα με αγαπά

Its that overwhelming gut wrench that you love, and you look forward to that controls me. When that feeling hits me, my only choice is to keep it fed. I have my boundaries, but my boundaries only protect the ones that are already close to me, outside of those boundaries I will only look to feed my desire. Some call it selfish, others call it driven, I call it passion. I don't know if I could ever change, nor do I think I ever want to. Its me. Its very much a part of me. After all trouble has always loved me....

Friday, December 12, 2008

Παραμονή πεινασμένη

Day 4 of being tied up in my house. Was suppose to DJ at The Whisky Bar tonight, but I decided on the side of reason to stay in til I'm completely healed up. Watching a lot of tv. Theres moments I feel I've lost parts of my physical brain from watching some of this... However its better than ignoring Dr.'s orders and besides the weather outside is completely insane right now. I've opened my blinds to see north looking upwards to the top of Queen Anne Hill where I can see the madness that the wind and rain are creating out there. I'm completely aware of the strong winds simply because they are trying very hard to be noticed outside my windows. Well, back to more important things like watching Everybody Hates Chris.and makin' the best Gyros in the city.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Ξίφη και tequila

Almost recovered from my staph infection. It got up near my brain. I could barely walk or move. 3 trips to the ER and I'm on my way to recovery. I can't wait to feel healthy again and get on with work. There is so much to do. Excited for plans with Crown Black Car. I start DJing at The Whisky Bar again every Friday. They want me to come back, so I'll try it for awhile. I was just so sick of that place on weekends. I can only do it for a few months at a time. Anyway, I'm glad I've had everyone around me caring for me, but I'm ready to get out of my amazingly comfortable apartment.