Monday, April 27, 2009

Στη θανάτωση

At work. Driving all night on what I'm sure will be a slow going Monday night. They almost always are. Sitting in Farva (All Crown Cars are named after a Super Troopers Reference) waiting for my next call. Just dropped a local bartender off @ the convenience store 1 block from his bar so he could buy smokes. Got a lot done in reference to the new cars being put on the road. Almost done with the Wa. State aspect of it all. Just city and DOL and they'll be ready to roll.

Day one of The Master Cleanse. I went and fucked it all up with a tostada and a cran vodka. Haha. 3 days in too. I was doing it all wrong anyway. I wasn't nearly adding enough Maple syrup to the mix let alone even drinking enough of the mix in general. I was only drinking 5 servings, and it should have been upwards of 11. Needless to say, I feel a lot better. Not hungry at all. It's a lot better ice cold as opposed to hot as well. Stay hungry!

Έναρξη

So I get to start this whole Cleansing thing all over. Just weighed myself. 201.6 lbs Going for at least 10 days, and no more than 14. I was doing it wrong the first 3 days anyway. So, I start tomorrow officially with the salt water flush... Uh oh. So scary. Wish me luck....again.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Κενό

I need to hit the road... 100+ MPH. I need clarity. I feel like I always lose sometimes. Not claiming to be a victim, but I just feel I've been dealt the bad luck hand... I feel empty, blank, hollow....

Just wanna hit the fuckin' gas...

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Πειθαρχία

I'm doing the Master Cleanse Fast right now. Day 3. Consists of hot purified water, real lemon juice, 100% pure maple syrup, and cayenne pepper. So far so good. Not thinking too much about food, except how I want my food choices to be when I'm done. Planning on a min. of 10 days, so we shall see how far past I get. It's already done quite a bit. Down 3lbs., my complexion is clearing up quite a bit, and I really feel the weight difference. I do miss my gyros. Damn... Don't worry little gyro... I just need some space... I'll be back for you. I promise...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Ευτυχία

We wonder what holds us back at times... Sometimes we just cannot put a finger on it. Sometimes we never really give it the thought it deserves... Often we give the trivial more thought than what's important to us to be truly happy... Sometimes we don't give it hard effort on purpose. Sometimes we don't want to hear the truth. So in fear of feeling badly hurt for a short moment, we'd rather suffer a greater part of our lives. We enable others to hold our happiness. It doesn't end there. Our life's path is ultimately tainted by another individual. We sacrifice our liberation for that thread of "hope". For what? For someone or something that has completely shipwrecked our lives.... People and dreams that deserve that hope do not hold you back. They encourage, motivate, inspire. Never let someone hold your happiness.
uhhh.... Seriously. Couldn't say it better than Mr.Ronnie Van Zant himself.... Right here!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Πόλη της σμαράγδου

Good night... I feel I'm in a place where I feel bold, confident, in place. No one can shake me, no more lookin' over my shoulder... My foundation is strong and defiant. I have everything strategically placed. This city is amazing.. This city is mine.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

έξι έτη

Six years Pops. Six years since I've seen you.... You're up in heaven, and I'm sure it looks like this. Gyro Delight Chicago style Greek fast food. Ate here tonight in your honor. Love you.